twenty ◦ junior ◦ drama major
You know I’m happy for you and you know I’m more proud of you than I’ve ever been in my life so quit acting like I’m being an asshole. I’ve always been behind whatever you wanted to do and you know it. It’s not like I dislike that you’re getting roles and shit, but you’re not even trying to see it from my point of view, even after I told you to drop it, so we’re done here.
Just because I’m not begging you to forgive me or trying to make you feel better about it doesn’t mean that I don’t see your point of view. If you don’t see that it’s just another part of a job for me then there’s nothing I can do to make you feel better about it. The guys I’m working with are professionals, they’re not just random guys that are looking for hot girls to kiss.
I’ve been trying to focus on school this year. While I have a few bookmarks on my computer of different acting and audition sites, I usually just visit them every once in a while to see if something catches my eye.
I’ll probably focus on school once I finish this student film. The last thing I want is to fall behind in my junior year because I know how difficult it’s supposed to be. Hopefully you’ll find something that works good with your schedule and you’ll be able to do it.
Cool. Remind me to never tell you if something bothers me because it fucks up your perfect world. Because we all know the only person whose opinions or feelings matter are Quinn’s, right? Gonna go out tonight.
Seriously? Sorry that I don’t want to hear about how much you dislike what I’m doing with my life the second that I get a job. I get that you might not like it, but you should still be happy for me. Instead I feel like I can’t even talk to you about it and that really sucks because you’re the person I want to talk.
Well who knows? New Haven is hardly a bad place to visit, after all. Maybe one of these days people will head up for a bit of a mini-break, or something. At the very least, the offer’s there, and that’s all that matters.
If you and Kurt ever want to get away from the city, the offer is definitely there. I’d love to have everyone here at some point just because I want to show them around. Plus sometimes it’s nice to have a night out without dealing of the insanity of New York City.
And you don’t get that I’m not dumb and I get that this is your work and that you gotta do it, I understand all that shit, but it’s still gonna piss me off to know you kiss other guys sometimes. Because you might not enjoy it but they sure as hell will and there’s nothing I can do about it. There’s no difference to me Quinn and it’s something I’ll get used to, but right now? I don’t freaking like it.
Whatever, Puck. I really don’t feel like talking about this anymore because all it’s doing is completely ruining any excitement I had over getting to do something like this. I’ll be sure not to mention anything about it to you so you don’t end up getting upset.
Then there isn’t an issue, is there?
Look, it’s whatever. I’ll get over it. Do as many kissing scenes or sex scenes as you want, but I’m never gonna be comfortable with someone else touching you just ‘cause it’s your job. And that might make me a selfish asshole but I don’t care.
Because you don’t get the fact that me doing those things with you and doing them with them are completely different. I do it with you because I love you and there is no one else I’d rather do anything with. I’m doing it with them because it’s my job and I don’t have any other option. If you can’t see the difference, I don’t know how else to spell it out for you.
That’s good! Hopefully they won’t keep you too late. Our door is open if you need anything, though. Just let me know, and if you need anything, you have my number.
I will. How have you been? Is there anything on your radar that you’re thinking about auditioning for? Or is school your main focus for this year?
Well that’s good, then. I’m not shocked you’ve got so many options, though. I guess it’s a good thing that so many people would up coming to New York, when they graduated. Something tells me that’s definitely going to be coming in handy.
More than likely. I’m just glad I can offer the same kind of thing, but I’m not sure how many people are going to find themselves needing a place to stay in New Haven. The offer is still going to be there for anyone who might need it.